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(kill) [25 Oct 2004|09:35am] fuck it. its chemical_corpse. add me if you love me.

(kill) Another selection from my [notebook [11 Oct 2004|05:32pm] [Sunday, October 10th] What is it I owe myself? Why do I feel as though Im holding something back? Something so vital to me, but unimportant to anyone else. We hide ourselves but find one another in the end. Maybe broken and diseased but still there. Alive. Or maybe not. Maybe thats just our imagination escaping into our realism. So petrified. Desilute. We wont cry for each other, only beat and wither away. Thats all we are. Corpses.

(2 Kills |kill) [17 May 2004|10:42am] oh yeah, new layout. tis jack of jill or "just orange jews"

(kill) [12 May 2004|09:52am] [ mood | happy ] things are swell. i dont know why i got so upset last night. i wish i could help brian out sometimes. i know he can do things on his own well, but i'd like to be apart of it. someday i'll learn what it is that helps him best. also, i get to spend most of the weekend with him!! all of saturday and sunday!! and getting a guest pass for him was really simple, so there was really no reason to freak out. now i just have to go buy the tickets. also, my painting is going well. though im not sure im going to have it done by tomorrow. in other news.... i forgot. oh well. brian is beautiful

(kill) [07 May 2004|03:27pm] [ mood | good ] im good. im bad. the good - *passed my psych exam with a C+ when i was sure i was going to fail *actually finished my psych poster, which i was quite satisfied with its finished look *Kyle Galicia helped me finish my study guide before we had to hand it in he's really nice. It seems, sometimes, that he wants to be my friend. He laughs at my jokes... people dont do that unless they're my friends honestly. i dont know. he's adorable. he reminds me of rivers a lot. because of his glasses, and he's kind of short, and his hair. i dont know. its strange, but i feel that weezer connection. some day, im going to ask him if he likes them too. but i dont know. i mean, he's into music like led zepplin and stuff... so... but that doesnt really mean anything. i want to write a book about it. whether kyle galicia likes weezer or not. also. *had a good lunch. Ashley is a great friend, helping me out in such times as these. *I get to work of all my detentions tomorrow by picking up trash from 10 am - 1 pm. i know, that doesnt sound like a good thing, but i need to graduate, and this is a lot easier than working 5 hours. *its my moms birthday, aww. *i get to see my kristiana tonight, *i have strawberry flavored whip cream <3 ::bad:: --its been a long week. and i cant relax with my boyfriend. its kind of depressing. i shouldnt have spent so much time around him at once. it makes it so much harder to be without him. i mean, i dont regret it, i just dont think it was the best idea i guess. i love him so much. now i get to go through another long week. --i dont get to talk to brian much tonite, but we talking from 9 - 12:30ish last night, so i think that makes up for lost time ^_^ he's too good to me. keeping me company even when its a hassle for him. well, i have a lot of photography work ahead of me... so yay. but i dont think it will be so bad. my teacher is pretty leaniant. well, im out.

(kill) [04 May 2004|03:32pm] [ mood | accomplished ] I have created a journal specificaly for my writing. If you are interested, my alternate sn is beauty_of_being. like i said, its only for my writing. i'd love critisism and stuff, or just suggestions and compliments, whatever you think. so if you want, please add this name to your friends list. k thats all.

(kill) [04 May 2004|10:23am] not much longer now... (please dont judge my writing by this... its just crappy prose.) enjoy with out judgement. (also... it doesnt all fit together very well, but try to bear with me) ( just a little something i wrote in my notebook the other day... )

(13 Kills |kill) [29 Dec 2003|01:39am]

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